We've been lucky so far this season. I've not had any snow to shovel nor any ice to chip through. Well, this may change tonight. A "winter storm warning" was issued for us over the next 24 hours and that seems to have mirrored the same frosty climate that has overtaken me lately.
I have a job that really isn't one...or it never really had a chance to become one. But now, it's not even a full-time one anymore because the employer is not bringing in enough to meet my salary...which has been cut 50% because they couldn't afford what was promised. The car had to have the oil changed today & it was dicovered that on the heels of this icy forcast, the two front tires must be changed because the tires on the car are shot.
The bills are climbing but the payscale ain't. I'm looking now for more part-time or better full-time work. We have a wonderful Sister in the Lord who has said she can watch our boys for a couple of hours (cheap) before I get out of work. In fact, a lot of folks have pitched in to not only make me feel welcomed into our new settings (from our recent move from northwestern PA) but feel accepted, as well.
I still have not learned to think things out in ways other than linear. So, trying to process all this is very cumbersome. There must be a stragegic way to arrive from "point a" to "point b" but I'm finding that in life, things get wrapped around trees & things & get tangled up in the process. That really screws up my linear thought process.
Things are about as "up in the air" as one could imagine. We don't know if/when/where our mortgage payment will come from next month. We don't know if/when/where I'll be working next month. And, we don't know if/when/where my wife will find a better paying job with a better, more productive working climate.
The weird thing is that I've not arrived at the "panic" mode yet. It's almost I'm hoping against hope that I'm wrong about where all this is headed & that just about the time this plane is about to go nose-down into bedrock, someone finds the way to yank the aircraft back up into the air and do a full 180 degrees to avoid a catastrophie.
I do know that I am discouraged & somewhat disappointed in the present state of affairs. But I have not given up all hope. I guess my hope is found in the folks around me who are encouraging me & helping me along. And they're helping us cope with our lack of a childcare budget.
I'm tired. I have to wake up in about 5 hours to go to my part-time (formerly full-time) job. Hey, at least there'll be some coffee waiting.
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