Resetting The Counter

When we "zero" the counter, we begin a fresh start. We loose whatever data was accumulated prior to our resetting the counter. We prepare to start a new project.

Such is my situation. Some choose to reset their counter. Others have it reset for them. Mine was more or less reset for me. I left one job which I had become ensconced for almost 18 years. I had developed ruts deep enough to lose a Humvee. I had my routine tattooed on the back of my brain. Then, after a geographic move to a new location & about a 8 month sabbatical, I took on new responsibilities with new accountability. Then, due to situations beyond my control, and before I had begun to create much of a rut, I was looking for a new job again in less than 6 months.

Then, it was the delirious task of refocusing my career goals, reassesing my talents & abilities, and reexamining my enthusiasm. When, luck would have it, an opening happened in my exact career field, I applied for it. Several weeks later, I received an email notifying me of an impending interview. More waiting...and then a phone call to schedule & confirm an interview. I had no axiety about interviewing..in fact, for me, I view these more of an adventure than I do a dirge.

Then there was a surprise... I was told of the company's health benefits & how much vacation time I would be getting. And then, the request for a second interview. I tried not to get my hopes up. That always jinxes things. So, I went to the 2nd interview with the same mental attitude as the first one. By the time I had finished my 2nd interview, I was quite sure I was seeing veiled satisfaction in the choosing of the right candidate. Yet, no mention of how much were they going to pay me...! I still held my tongue. They had said they would be sending me a "written proposal".

I have received this proposal in the mail today & it appears to be satisfactory. Now the counter gets set to zero. New responsibilites, new accountabilities, new duties, new expectations...new people. Heck, I'm going to the the new person...! I read over the duties (none of which I am incapable of doing) and NOW the anxiety tries to creep in. How long will it take for the "new" to wear off of this new position? How will my actions & my motives be "read" by my new co-workers? Are there expectations of me that I do not know about that I will discover? Ack! I have to stop thinking.

I'm just going to reset the trip counter & drive.